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I watched "Forks Over Knives" last night. loved it!
coincidentally, I walked 5 miles yesterday.
ate salad.
after watching that film, I RAN up to the mailbox this morning.
did situps, the whole 9 yards.
gee, if I did this 6 weeks ago I might have met my goal.
or not.
sooo, still at 148.
bleah.
so much for my deadline for buffness.
going to see the Fam "as is."

And then there was cake!

I haven't lost or gained and have been eating almost whatever I want.
The egg and bagel diet has had no effect. No weight gain. (no weight loss)
Bacon, bread and wedding cake has had no effect. Beer - no problem.
So, I still weigh 148.
sigh

Lost weight. Found it.

Food I eat (and love) that's bad for me: peanuts, mayonnaise.
New test diet: no peanuts or mayonnaise.
Yesterday I weighed 147.
Then I ate
half a sleeve of ritz crackers
bowl of peanuts.
Mayonnaise on my smoked trout.
giant salad with yogurt lime dressing.
today I weigh 150.
bummer.
for breakfast I'm having a big fat
egg
2 slices bacon
cheese
green chilis
on an onion bagel.
don't care. too bad.
just not having peanuts or mayonnaise.

The Wedding Prep Diet

     It's called STRESS and NOT EATING and BEING SICK.
            I don't recommend it.            
                        I did lose another couple pounds only to gain them back because I 
                             doused myself with brandy and honey for a bad cough.               
Meanwhile, I'm at 148. My eating habits have been crap. Not bad food. Just intermittent eating.
               Then bread and crackers also seemed to suppress the bad cough.                                       
Breaking News today was that not all calories are created equal.
Wow, these scientists are amazing. Are they telling me that if I only eat 900 calories of ice cream and potato chips I won't really lose weight? Geniuses.
                             Like, uh, brandy and honey makes me gain weight?
So, I'm about 4 weeks out to buff land and family visit. Not like they all didn't just see about a million pictures of me at my son's wedding.
But I'm still bound and determined to wear my old cute clothes and feel better...and have a thinner face. It's me who sees me in the mirror everyday. Nobody else.
                         I'm the one whose opinion matters.
               Back to oats and fruit and yogurt and spinach and carrots.                    

Hallafukinlooya

Basically, just quit eating.
147.
Actually, yesterday I had:
                           a banana
                                       frosting and cake batter
egg yoks (leftover from white cake) with sweet potatoes and sour cream
                                      salad
                  Whew.

4 weeks to ????

Okay, I've totally blown off writing down what I've been eating...
             but that doesn't mean I've blown the diet                       
I've just been horrendously frustrated that while consuming around 1000 calories a day....
                Nothing Changes!!!!!!                
             So, here I am, reporting in                     
          and down a pound          
                 again                       
                                aaahhhhh, 149, how wonderful you are                         
I guess it's only been 2 weeks. and in that 2 weeks I've lost and gained that same pound            
but golly, how stubborn am I?
My friend who recently lost 30 pounds said she finally just basically had to quit eating...
Yup, that's about it....just don't eat......much......
Yesterday I had:
                                          pancakes =     400
the rest of my grandson's hamburger  = 600
        big salad with everything         =      400
Total                                                       1,400
I hung in there and did not sit out front and watch the sky with an ice cold beer
I had iced herb tea with honey. It was yummy.
My son is getting married this weekend.
There will be cake.
and barbeque.
and liquor.
I plan on having some of all of it.
But I would also really like to fit into my favorite summer pants!!!!!!!
Oh total motivation.
I refuse to weigh 150.
Oh total consternation.

just starve already

Oatmeal with dates and walnuts that took me all day to finish!
and
1/2 trout, sweet potatoes, grilled onions and grilled carrots all cooked in mega olive oil
small salad with balsamic wilted with the grilled stuff
no calorie count as I am at work eating lunch (leftover of the above)...
weight = 149.
hang in there baby
change takes time
how many weeks do I have left?
how many weeks has it taken me to get serious?
O.K., don't answer that.
I drank piles of water and also took some psyllium husk with bentonite clay just to ensure I don't have a bunch of gunk (that weighs a lot) stuck in my system.
Oh, and thought, maybe since I'm exercising so great, I'm just replacing the fat with muscle which, of course we all know  - weighs more.. yeah, o.k., that's it.
can't wait to weigh in tomorrow.
golly.